RJ the destroyer

RJ loves trying to break my ankles part deux!

Ive been getting sleep paralysis so often now that im starting to think about death a lot to where i would not be able to wake myself out of that state and like get a stroke or something. It is not the painful process that i worry about its morely of being forgotten eventually from your friends and family. One day your like the main topic and then probably a month later your existance is just not quite there anymore. I wish i could do something that will capture everyones heart that they will forever remember me by or be the guy that actually saves someones life or changing someones life around for the better.

Today happened to be one of those mornings where I have woken up and just realized that i have not accomplished anything. I thought i would have made it somewhere by the time that I hit 24 but at this rate right now i don't even think that its possible. Yesterday showed me that time has definitely not been on my side which brings me to this... time to start taking things a bit more serious and lay away from the bad habits that have been partaking my life the last couple weeks, go out and look for another job since summer really sucks with out like having the money to spend. As my father would always quoted all the time remember "no money no honey!" but growing up seeing how money was a big issue for my parents and pretty much what split them apart i saw it being "mo money mo problems" for the time being. I kinda cant wait until the fall quarter to start along as well just to get through with things. I think what hits me harder on this is seeing some people already chasing their dreams while you just sit here still dreaming and i do not want to make this as real as it gets for the rest of my life.

the sound of vibration in between your word makes me want to succeed and do better after everything I've heard